The lights went on but I feel the opposite in my heart.
The weather made it more heavy to weight by my lost mind.
I felt the sudden urge to pray and talk to God.
As soon as my class ended I decided to go to church only to find out it is closed.
Subconsciously, I am aware it is. Maybe I just want to walk and think.


I keep wondering why and how the human mind can fall in love with someone who is not deserving or with someone we can't reach. Yeah, like a high school student who wonders about love. But what I hate on walking while raining is the water that gets in my shoes. Just knowing it is contaminated with human saliva and dog poop, I regret this walk and think shit. It is absurd I know having love in my brain when what I should do is to study but who can stop the heart anyways? Most of the time, we do the less right thing more than the socially must do reality.


Its just that.....
Lately, I can no longer fake a smile.
I miss smiling that meet my eyes.
I haven't connected to any human being lately.
Physical connection is common.
Mental connection is rare.

That may be all I need
In darkness he is all I see
Come and rest your bones with me...