Have you tried to sit in front of your laptop, with headphones on, stare at the computer screen showing a movie you actually don't like or doesn't care about?

You watch it hoping it will make you cry. But it is not about the movie.
It is the scenarios in your head you hope too forget.

Weird is there are parts of the movie that suddenly come interconnected with the scenarios in your head which makes you swallow air, then the pain in your chest grows bigger and bigger..

You want to cry but there's nothing there.
Memories play...
Play..

If you want to leave, just leave.
Don't bid goodbye.